jasvinny

i am physically drained...

2010-05-21T22:00:00.002+08:00

I like oni went to bed ard 2am this morning.. woke up early!!
had a great day at sch!! wah i had so much of fun chatting the whole day..hehe

that after sch..went shopping on my own for the dress..you know something while I was
shopping I did wish to myself I wish dinesh was wif me here so he can help me out..
after I finish he msg me ...asking me if i wanted to go shopping for the dress..so sweet ah..
he just finish work n wanna bring me so shopping some more.. but i said its ok..so i went home
sat like for a while..

than started praticing the dance for tmr...omg!!! so tiring.. we oni finished at 9 ..if i am not woring we started at 6.30..

well now having dinner.. very soon gonna slp already..need to wake up and brush up and perfect the step..after that still have to buy shoes to match the dress...

k k ..better get back to dinner...c ya

wake up bitch!!!

2010-05-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

i know u so gonna read my blog for what happened...
so hear this!!!
after u send that msg.. he told me i cld reply whatever i want...
but he wld type it.. go get this bitch... i said FICK YOU BITCH!!! n he typed it...
and another thing... when u tried to call ..he was the one who passed the phone to me...

So if you still think you mean someting to him.. you are so fucking wrong....coz he was
so willing to type that msg just to make sure I don't get angry...

SO WAKE UP!!! AND FUCKING LEAVE HIM ALONE... U BEHAVE SO DESPERATE!!!

FUCK YOU BITCH!!!

2010-05-19T13:47:00.003+08:00

who ever said my bf is unfaithful to me...can seriously fuck urself and die!!!
coz u don't know my baby like I do..
He will nvr be in ur fucking life...so just 4get it....
stop trying... get a life bitch...
there are man who are not att out there...

HOME SICK!!!!

2010-05-15T08:28:00.002+08:00

I really wanna go hone.. feel like crying being here sometimes... for god's sake..
i cant even watch a movie in my lappy wifout a ear piece... because somehow its too loud for everyone.. If it was my own home. I'd have my own room to listen and no1 wld say anything!!
I can't sleep in the afternoon coz i don't have a bed of my own!! I don't have a placce to call my own here!! sometimes I feel like I can't buy too much things because I feel that i might cluter this place!! I can't come home late...i can't do a lot of things!! I am supposed to practice a dance wif my sister!! and i don't know where in this house am i going to do it!! What if its so loud!!

I used to blast the music so loud at home and have so much of fun dancing..here I cant do any of that. I hate all this!! That's why I say late in school, coz I hate coming back ot a place that is not my home!!

I mean I have the best family..I really appriciate everything!! But I just can't call this home!! ^ more months.. Hope I last till then...

I really have to than baby!! for trying to make his home like mine for me.. I love him so much coz he is so caring and considerate towards me

happy mummy day

2010-05-09T10:23:00.001+08:00

haappy mummy day to all the mummys out there..
currently sitting down doing ntg...
in a while... i will help my aunty cook today...that's my mummy day
present to her... and all my aunties that will come later to eat..

k gtg.. must call dinesh mummy and wish mummy day to her..c ya all

updating...

2010-05-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

well i havent blogged for quite some time..
so much has happened..
YA ..mon nite i went to watch SURA wif dinesh.. came home oni 12.30 pm..
hehe .. he so sweet .. so tired after work . .. still bring me go watch movie..
I am a huge vijay fan . but this movie was really stupid la.. but vijay looks so handsome la..
hehe dinesh caught me staring at the screen like i wanted to be in the movie wif vijay like that.
hehe.. than i just look at him and smile...

ya than tue and wed also was spending time wif him.. i had so much of fun..
he is a crazy guy la.. hehe most of all .. i like the way he makes me shut up..
very interesting hehe..

k k gtg now.. have to top up hp to reply baby...

so sweet!!!!

2010-05-03T10:02:00.004+08:00

hehe alex so sweet.. he was feelng down.. so i cheered him up.. now i pm in MSN is..
so demotivated now...but jasvinny told me something that i can be happy about...

haha..i guess i can cheer ppl up..like how dinesh does..i learn from the best what...

saturday i went for a family gathering at my cousin's place at semei..hehe so fun!!! gambling .laughing ..passing down the clothes.. that's like our family tradition like that...
omg i really really had so muchof fun..

yesterday i went for a birthday party... help my uncle out ..so can earn some money out of it..
omg it was a 10 yr old bday..omg i had so much fun!! super fun!!

oh yah.. after that went to dinesh house... now i know y he called me to come..just to eat crocodile meat... hehe very sweet actually...coz he knows i have ashma.. n eating crocodile meat helps ...the thing is.. he told me it was chicken and he kept forcing me to eat that so called chicken.. hehe..so sweet la he.. the thing is..he actually remembered crocodile meat helps..his mum also has ashma..so yah.. his mum and all of us at home ate it..hehe only he and his mum knew it was chicken la..

whatever!!!! serously !!!

2010-04-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

" I DONT WANNA BUSTARD JASVINNY" yah right!!! that's why you ask him to think again an that's why you ask him to meet you and all..

i don't know what to say.. except that u don't know him..
just because he entertains u..that does not mean he loves you.. n besides..you are not the
only girl he talks to..

always accept the unexpected.. its for the better..trust me

2010-04-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

today when i say the problem statement i though it was going to be easy and we wld end early today .. i was so freaking wrong.. It was hard!!! very very hard!! the Faci liked asked so many questions and wow ...we were researching for the answers while presenting.. just imagine how hard it was..

but i had a lot of fun durin gmy break.. laugh like crazy wif my classmates.. i had so much than..
and ofcoz i met dinesh today ..hehe..
well i thought it wld go well..but it did not at first..becoz of some1...
i got pissed of like hell when i saw that msg she sent.. dinesh also got angry trying to calm me down.. but most of you wld have already know we are like the weirdest couple so yah...after his shower he was nice to me already and by than I also was calmed.. I mean i knoe dinesh loves me.. but i just get irritated wif such things.. anyway after all that... we both and his sister sat down and were watching movie.. than yah..was getting late had to leave..so got a big hug from him and left..

.. my baby love me.. and i love him a lot too!!!
its not the looks or the money that made me crazy over him..
its the fact that he brightens up my day with his everyday morning msges
and his smile when look at his face..most of all the fact that he will always give me hope
when i am feeling down.. he is the best thing that ever happened...
HE COMPLETES ME!!!

60th wedding

2010-04-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

did u know.. that indians when the husband turns 60.. they will have the 60th wedding.. where they will re-marry..
omg ..its a very sweet thing.. i want 1 too..hehe..

yup..so today i did not go to sch and attended the wedding...
its my cousin's mother in law's wedding.. omg its so sweet to c them like that..
and getting married...
super tiring... but i love weddings...so yah ..worth it...i love to see the smile
on the brides face..n i love to see the groom looking at the bride and telling himself she is the one..

great weekend

2010-04-26T09:39:00.003+08:00

i had a great weekend... not what we planned..but yah..still was great...
saturday I went for the Tamil new year show at yew tee CC... I went there to put make up
for the dancers... hehe so fun.... We danced ard for fun.. take pictures.... ya and thank for god
tashvitha's Bf.. he gave us a ride back home... i also had fun wif chandini and tashvitha and santhya... so funny la.. joking ard like crazy girls .. mm really gonna miss them..don't know when i'll see them again...

As for sunday!!!! the best part of my weekend
my dad made the best breakfast and lunch ..
wow..wake up early morning..breakfast is already on the table..
gd life la...
than lunch.. mutton.prawns... dhal ..wow ..so nice...
after that went to meet dinesh... we had so much of fun ...
hehe i accidently hit his nose..hehe i think that is the very first time where i hit him so hard..
sorry baby!!! hehe
well... sfter that DINESH MADE DINNER!!! HOW COOL IS THAT!!! MY BF COOKS!!
he made asam pedas...it was very nice.. after dinner..
we just leaned on each other and talked...
he made me sing a very stupid song..
n now that song is in my head...
hehe ... k going for break ..c ya

LOVE DINESH!!!! N YES!!! DINESH IS NOT MY FRIEND!!! HE IS MY BOYFRIEND!!!
I GUESS SOME ONE IS CONFUSSED ABT THAT!!

i guess i got what i want..

2010-04-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

i met both of them instead.!!!
i met wif monessa than met dinesh to go watch a movie..
so look slike i got what i want...
like how i always do!!!
hehe yup.
ok ok need to do my RJ...
c ya all soon

P.S
JUST INCASE U R READING MY BLOG!!!
I DONT CARE ABT UR PICS IN FB!!!!
I DONT CARE ABT THE COMMENTS!!!
U R OUT OF MY LIFE FOR LIKE SO MANY YRS...
THATS HOW I WANT THNGS TO BE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!

what will i be doing after sch today ?

2010-04-19T15:13:00.002+08:00

well currently i am still in class ..super boring... microeconomoics..

well i got to plans after sch today ..
first plan to go watch movie wif dinesh..
he said it was a maybe only coz he has to meet his fren.. sathish ofcoz!!!! hehe

second plan
go out wif moness to causeway pt.. look for a job..
than go do threading....

where i wanna go..hmmm?? i think out wif dinesh..
actually he planned to go watch movie coz we so long nvr watch ..
so that's y ... we need out monthly watching movie back...hehe

so..... i'll let u knoe which 1 i went to when i am at home k

2 yrs 1 mth !!!

2010-04-16T21:45:00.003+08:00

This is his fav pic

on my bday.... the best bday ..coz he was wif me

The first pic we ever took... he edited it...

the most recent pic we took

YEA!!! thats right... its my 2 yrs 1 mth today..
hehe and i swear i totally forgot...once u reach 1 yr... after that
you forget the mths and only look forword to the years ..

So happened for the past few days i keep meeting or chatting wif my old frens...
so they always ask how u and dinesh or how long alredi ...I kept saying oh 2 yrs
alredi..2 yrs alredi .. but suddenly i remembered oh yah ah..16th april will be 2yrs 1mth..
hehe

well dinesh once told me not to count... anyway he nvr counts.. but it may seem like he dont care
but he definately knows when its 16th march ..yea!! my baby cares ok!!

ok since its my 2 yrs 1 mth.. i shall dedicate this post to my bf who will nvr c my blog ...lol
everytime some1 finds out how long i have been wif him..they always say...wow jasvinny congrats.. finally you can really love some1..

coz most of my frens kinda know.. that i nvr was able to commit to some1.. expecially my sis wld know that... hehe ..but when i am wif dinesh...i tell u..i feel so badly in love... we might fight all the time.. but when i am in his arms...i feel so complete...like u just know..this is it...this is what you want for the rest of my life..

I and dinesh fight i think worst than married couple sometimes.. but really ntg has changed i still love him a lot.. and he is the 1 ..

I LOVE YOU DINESH!!! ALWAYS WILL..

First day of Year 2..

2010-04-15T20:12:00.002+08:00

yea!! so happy to be back in sch ...
i woke up early and made breakfast and packed lunch for me and monessa
we were both so broke, so yah we had to pack food.
She had to go sch very early today, so i decided to pack for her too,
cannot imagine her starvig the whole day.

today i had sports facilities management today.
Omg!! its very very in debth of like an events management la..
difficult but very interesting and I like it. I love events management anyway ..
Tmr i will be having Spots law.. really looking forward for it...

Oh ya.. btw i am in E54M.. that's my class.
OHHH and i love it.. they are funny and really bubbly bunch of people..
and i must be like super lucky la.. to have jasvin and huda in the same class..
i really enjoyed my first lesson.

I promise i will work harder this yr.. I want to get a 3.5 GPA..
btw i am JASVINNY CRESSINDA...
so anything is possible when i put my mind to it...

tmr i plan to go job hunting..
plz god i beg u !!!
plz get me a retail job at causeway point..
i promise to work hard!!!
i cannot do FnB ..dinesh will kill me..
he already half hearted abt me working and studying..
don't wanna make him more angry by getting an FnB job..
love u baby.. believe me k ..when i say i know what i am doing..
(sometimes ah .. the way i blog ah .. as though dinesh will read my blog oni)

sch...goals... dreams...lol

2010-04-11T23:14:00.002+08:00

Firstly i thought i was starting sch next mon!!
ends up its this thursday...

i and monessa have a set of goals that we need to archieve...
which are
- study hard
- lose weight before the next wedding
- work hard
( the same old ones)

Well abt my last post..
i realise that ...even though dinesh and i might be the world most different couple..
we are still very much in love wif each other..

How i realised that??
well.. all thanks to monessa's dream..
hehe..
i dont know la..
he and i might fight a lot..
hardly talk..but the love nvr dies off i guess..
he still loves and cares for me a lot..
he is the sweetest...
the best
my world is him!!
hehe

I LOVE U SO MUCH DINESH

I seriously need help!!!

2010-04-06T22:47:00.002+08:00

how much does a girl have to go through to be in a relationship??
how much must she sacrifice??
how much is enough???
how to know if it's worth it??

is giving up my passion to dance,getting stupid answers and feeling like shit abt the way he treats u worth it??
coz no matter how much he may be a jerk at times... he is still a wonderful guy..
really..he gives me whatever i want..but in the form of materials..when all i want is his love ...
the love we both felt!!

is 2 yrs the time where ur relationship goes through this??
how the hell married couples make it work??
coz i mean its oni 2 yrs and i got a million to complain abt
what the hell am i talking abt a life time..coz i am not sure if
i can sacrifice anything else...
i love this guy..at time he makes me feel like its worth it..
there are time where i will just wish he will get knocked down by a car
for talking to me like that
( rem i only think like that out of anger...but i really really love him and wld nvr want such a thing to happen to him)

i just feel sometimes its so unfair... when he does it..i must be understanding... but when i do it.. its wrong... thats when we fight or break up!!!

all i know is..
i love him and i still wanna spend the rest of my life wif him
but i wanna know of there is a way to end this torture..!!
god help me!!!

showing some love

2010-03-30T10:50:00.003+08:00

omg!!!! i am super tired!! i have been going out everyday and coming back home late...
n ya nisha invited me for a sleepover this week...
i have no idea how i am going to convience my dad for that..
but i always some how get my way la.. hehe
love yah daddy!!!!

btw thank you vinothini..shamimah and monessa for the post in FB..
so nice to have frens like them...

dinesh baby!!! i love u and will alway alway always love u ..

so much of love ah today in my post hehe..

my aunty just talked abt my grandma..asking me why she had to leave us so early..
she would have loved to be at the wedding..
n you know what... i know my grandma was there...she would not miss her grandchild's wedding

ofcoz i always wanted my grandma to be at my wedding too.. i know she will be there

things are not the same now that she is not ard..its gonna be a yr in a few more mths..
but i can still tell no1 is over the fact that my grandma is gone... maybe coz we thought that she would live forever.. after her death... than oni it struck me that one day every1 u love so dearly will have to leave us... eventhough we tell ourselves we know one day it is gonna happen.. we still will nvr be prepared for the actual thing..

i know.. coz i almost went crazy in my head ... when my grandma past away.. u know what even till today i still talk to her in my head.. and i am gonna make sure this family stays together....
eventhough a lot has been going on.. we are still one strong ramasamy family ... love them all..

i know for a fact..that's what my grandma would have wanted.. a strong family always together...
i miss her.. so badly..i miss her shouting at me for my dressing... or why i always cutting my hair.. or why i alway coming home late..
enough enough i think i might just cry.. k k ..bye ppl.. c ya ard soon....
love u all too...for viewing my blog hehe...

I am so gonna get the "I told u so"thingy....

2010-03-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

i did get the "i told you so"...
when i told them they i and dinesh patch up AGAIN!!!
i dont know la..this is like the 5th time.. but i am
truly..madly in love wif him..just that he 4gets
that he means the world to me..
he 4gets that..he completes me...
thats why he always tends to back off b4....
HE THINKS THAT I AM GOING TO LEAVE HIM.

you know somwthing i just thought i will be able to
not go back anymore..but i guess i was wrong....
i love this guy too much..that i am ntg wif out him
and u know something... he may say the most hurtful
things abt me... but he only is saying it bcoz he is also deeply hurt..
i love him always and always only...

a few pic at the wedding

2010-03-23T22:10:00.004+08:00

me and my cousin's mother in law...sweet lady

my cute nephew

ME ..ME ...ME!!

Malar akka and anneh

cousins!!!

me and samuthra akka

me .. my sister and more cousins...

what's gonna happen to me now??

2010-03-23T21:53:00.003+08:00

well firstly i think the wedding went well..super nice.... love my sari ...
yesterday a lot happened...
FIRSTLY!!!!..dinesh brokw up wif me..
ya i know i know...
some of u must be thinking ... "AGAIN"
well ya... we broke up again.
n ya ... i am freaking hurt..
but u know what...i think i'll be alright this time
coz god really blessed me wif wonderful frens...
n ofcoz.. the best brother who really made me feel
like so much better....
THANK YOU MONESSA.. VICKY.. N OFCOZ SHANKARA ANNEH!!!
n ya.. not forgetiing samuthra akka and vengadesh anneh ...
they let me stay over at their place yesterday .. they really cheered me up too..
i had a great time.. expecially when akka wld cover her face when she saw something
gross abt the movie...hehe

i am happy.!!! really happy!!
definately empty... but some how if all this lovely ppl ard..
they make it feel alright....

i miss him !!! i'll get over it.. i seriously wish him all the best in his life..
i really hope becomes the person who he really wants to be..
i will always love him..
but just that i have to let go i guess..
hehe..

alright enough of my love life... its over after all..

Pre-wedding madness or just EGO!

2010-03-18T15:09:00.003+08:00

oh my god ...u have no idea how much of shit goes behind these weddings untill you are part of it..
its not my wedding btw, its my cousin's... yesterday was the bangle ceremony... a lot happened!!
seriously ..i think when getting married ..you have to forgive ur past, coz u r starting a new...
so maybe there are million of ppl who hated you or hurt you..but no matter what they became a part of your life.. u can't take it away..so y not juz change it.. i mean forgive them, who knows
they might juz be the one there wif the big ang bao for your wedding...

I am saying this bcoz...ppl tok!! ppl complain abt y u nvr invite this or that person all.. why go through all this for your wedding..it might just make things as hard even after your marridge..

ya right!! who wld take advice from a 19 yr old girl!! the next thing i might hear is.. what wld i know abt weddings!!

but this is not so much abt wedding ..its more abt forgiving... and even a 9 yr old has the right to tell any1 that forgiving is impt.. i bet every parent will ask their child to go say sorry to some1 when they were young... i mean when it was so easy to say it at that age..now why suddenly is so difficult.

if you just put ur difference a side... and just invite bcoz u r family or your fren... than u did your
part to let go of all the shit that ever happened...if they dont come... well..atleast now they wont have any chance to create any problem right!

ONE FINAL LAST THING!!!!!!!!!... I know every girl will have their dream wedding... but no girl can do it on their own.. plz!!! dont be afraid to ask for help... there will be some1 to help..
I mean..if i was asked to help out in a lot of the stuff....i swear i will be super willing to help.. ntg cld have made me more happier than to know that i helped to make the bride dream wedding come true.. yah yah !!! i know!!!! a lot of opinions will start to shoot out when others get involved.but ..if u r firm n serious abt what you want!! than shut them up by saying no its ok..i still want it that way..anyway who knows some ideas cld have actually made the wedding much better...

wah!! so much of feelings just for the bangle ceremony .. wait till the wedding..omg!!! cannot wait to hear what i'll hear than.. no no!!! wait till its my wedding aiyo!!! i might go nuts.. NO!! maybe not..i love my family and my frens.... allof them !! no matter what i have done to them .. or what they have done to me... i will still want them there at my wedding more than anything...
(BTW i cannot remember anyone offending me that badly that i cannot 4give them la)

..............I MISS DINESH .... I MISS U SO MUCH BABY!!!! N YA HAPPY 2 YRS-SARY!!! HEHE

8 episodes in a day..which means abt 8 hrs..

2010-03-15T18:43:00.002+08:00

i watched 8 episodes of ghost whisperer..
total abt 8hrs wasted... half my day gone
n believe it or not.. i am still on my laptop

ok gonna move my ass off this seat soon
after chatting i guess..
so ya ntg great happened la...
maybe just that i spoiled my eyes even more...
or yah... ghost whisperer season 5 is gd!! very gd!!

............................................tmr's my 2 yrs wif my baby.....

its been crazy!!

2010-03-14T13:04:00.002+08:00

2 days since i blogged...
coz for the past two days i have been out
and coming back home late...
went out wif viki 1 ( who is my fren ) and viki 2 ( who is monessa's fren)
vinothini..monessa ..and shamimah..
hehe i had a great time wif them... omg.. both the vikis are
so funny...

gonna miss monessa... she is going india..
babe tc alrite...

i am kinda angry abt yesterday though..
i mean ..some ppl can really know how to
spoil a day..
i cannot believe they did that anyway...
anyway now that i am back..
i promise..
i'll be there for my frens..
and no1 is going to walk all over them ..

viki 1..nice tricks... and i hope u enjoyed going out
wif them too.. they are ur frens now too...

ntg much today...

2010-03-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

yup yup... ntg much happened today..didnt go out..
did my excersice today... dont know if its working...
i really hope there will be a difference..

well i am kinda like organinsing some stuff
now... thats what i love doing....events
..birthdays...

i really need to tell u ppl something
i mean i am not some senior or what.. but its really what i feel..
i know its gonna be 2 yrs in this relationship..
n sometimes i get this.. oh u yrs 2yrs alredi what...
so ofcoz is easy for you to say...
but trust me.. there is ntg easier ..just bcoz its 2 yrs..
the hurt and the pain will still be as worst as how it was for the first time...
you will still nvr know how to handle it ...
but the one thing that keeps u going.. is bcoz u know its still worth it
coz a few mistakes dont over shadow all the wonderful moments..

so...dont give up coz u think it hurts..
i mean everyone gets hurt by love.. but ther still
look for love in some form rite... so stay if u believe
its worth it and there is more happiness at the end of the road alrite...

well...what can i say........

2010-03-10T20:43:00.002+08:00

well.... what can i say, i have a sweet bf...
met him today...
he got his new phone... hehe very nice... just hope he takes care of it properly..
ohh ya.... we were fighting like for real... hitting each other and all...
well it started out just playing ard..than it became serious when he really kinda
like pinch my cheeks so hard... omg!! super pain.. worst than the other stuff la..
hehe than ok alredi la..
but he kept bullying me...

i oni met him for a short while..
coz he so wanted to meet satish!!!!!
aiyo this satish going to die in my hands...
always when dinesh is wif me oni ...he will kol la
IDIOT!!!!
not forgetting the drama he caused that day at sunshine..
actually he is not that bad la.. quite nice guy...known him for
quite a long time too..

in the begainnig i am like that la..i cannot accept that dinesh is actually going to go
meet his frens when he is out wif me...
but after i while i'll be ok la...
bcoz i mean he actually end of the day spends more time wif me
than wif his frens..
hehe he was quite sweet today..
he actually wanted to have dinner wif me so that i'll feel better that he is spending more time..
i said nvm ... coz his frens were waiting.. hehe that was more than enough for me.... his selfless thought... isint he amazing???
LOVE U BABY!!!

gd morning...

2010-03-10T10:04:00.000+08:00

well.. yesterday the stupid wireless had so much of probs that i cld not blog....
ntg much happen la yesterday..
went to meet my darling monessa... so gd to see her after so long..
she was sick la... hope she gets well soon..
hehe we were updating each other about everything..
wow it seems the team puyal.. all new members..
and a lot is going on there too...

oh ya.. at nite.. i was chatting wif this guy vik.. in msn
from the team puyal.. one of the dancer.. so happen monessa was also
telling me abt him so much yesterday when i met her...
hehe..well was nice chatting wif him.. felt like i met one new
member...
well i wish them all the best for their performance next mth...

n btw... its such a wonderful morning... finally rained...
hehe poor dinesh...woke up so early.. at 6 am.. after that he went back to
slp la.. i think he still sleeping.. so nice to slp now some more...
well me have to go do excersice now.. c cya...

wah!! super long!!!!

2010-03-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

well... its been like forever since the last time i blogged...
hehe so much has happened..

well firstly... i am still attached to the lovely dinesh..
madly in love wif him.. will always be..
currently sitting at delifrance waiting for him..
hehe well both our birthdays are over ..
valentines day ..hehe as usuall when it comes to the both of us....
valentines day nvr works out.. again he made me cry..
but as usual.. he is still the sweetest bf ..
he brought me to vivo the next week..
bought me yummy chocolates...
and walked and lookded at ships and talk..
he is just the best..
btw next week is our 2YRSARRY!!!!
hehe..

I LOVE DINESH

okok ... enough abt my obsession..
now my family....
well now i am staying wif my aunties..
we kinda rented our house..
so we moved it wif them..
fun la..
to have 2 aunties .i cousin bro( who is protective..nice to have some1 like him ard)
and also my niece...
well dad and sis too la
so fun la..my cousin sis is getting married...
in 2 weeks time....
so i have been going shopping wif my aunties and cousins..
so fun aiyo!!! i love them la..
i am really looking forward to the wedding..
i plan to lose some weight in this 2 weeks..
stsrted today.
100 sit up
100 push up.
100 crunches..
well dinesh has been motivating abt it..
so i think i can actually make it la...

well as for my frens!!!!
I MISS THEM!!!!
i am currently having my holidays..
so i nvr met them for so long...
i think after the wedding..
i will hang out wif them la..
u know..
i think i'll keep blogging everyday abt my 2 weeks losing weight thingy k ..
than i know if i am on the right track ..

wow finally updated...

2009-10-23T11:04:00.000+08:00

so lazy to update....
so bz also... always rushing for tuition than to do the yew tee cc
stuff..worst part is havent even start practising our dance..

last week was deepavali..but we didnt celebrate la..
but still had so much of fun...
5 days since dinesh went to australia..
coming back oni on the 14th of nov...
so happy!!!! tat i got to chat wif him yesterday..
missing him a lot..
today is his sis bday..surely she will be missing him a lot too..
omg!!! i am really tired... like super tired...
cannot wait for tmr's trip wif my family.
we going peneng... coming back on mon..
n yah..i not going sch on mon..

well tats all for now..
so bored in class thats y decided to update

changes are gd....

2009-10-08T12:30:00.001+08:00

omg.... firstly i love my new haircut..
secondly ... 1 advice...i think its alrite to take a
risk to change sometimes... i mean i was like oni gonna
do the same old haircut... no change ntg..
cannot believe i did it too..n i am happy.
i love it.. so ya.. do try something different
n btw .the new look is working wonders..
dinesh wants to pick me up today..
wow!!!! rare ok !!!!!
so ya....i love myself....
i love my day..
i love my life..
omg!!! i am back..

last day of holiday

2009-10-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

sadly the holidays are coming to an end... juz when i started enjoying it..
it is ending... sob sob..
and ya..i juz cheaked my new class n new classmates..
I am still in blk E3.. but oni thing its level 5 and room R..
as for my classmates.. i happen to oni know 1gurl..
well atleast i know 1 rite..
ya there is an indian guy .. i pray he is not the typical type..
n ya there ia a panjabi gurl her name is jasvin..
hehe.. jasvinny n jasvin... new classmates.. how i get
along wif her..
i hate starting to make frens all over again..
imagine... in 1 yr 1 have to do it 2 times..
than for 3 yrs i have to go through this 6 times..
omg.. so annoying
well tmr sch..
so not ready to wake up early
tmr's module is marketing...
lets c how it goes la..
oh ya i still have maths !!!!
but no more science ..yea!!!

RaYa PiC

2009-10-01T18:12:00.000+08:00

Alot more pic to come la..slowly k

thank u gals for the wonderful time

2009-10-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

my wonderful girlfrens brought me out for raya-ing on tue.
we went to 6 houses...
from the west to the east...
first was siti's house at bukit panjang...
i was using siti's baju kurong... n omg
her house is so cute... her mum is so artistic..
she painted the walls.. u know there even was a painted
brick wall.. so cute... n the room doors were like the old kampong style..
so nice so nice...

second house we went to was idayu's house which was at bishan..
hehe... had fun there... all of us got crazy.. nisha was juz plain evil..
treating idayu like a maid...
well we explored idayu's room..
her's is big omg.. i wish i had a big room..
n a clean 1 too...:(

we were lazy to take the train to bedok...
so we decided to take a cab..
btw there were 5 of us...
however one taxi driver who was so kind
took all 5 of us in his cab..
hehe he was one hack of a man la..
btw he has a webside..if i am not wrong its ..
thankgoditshalal.com
haha...
wen at bedok we waited for ain to come join us..before going to
nadira's house...oh ya...siti's bf was waiting under nadira's blk
nadirah's mum was so nice.. she bought pizza for all of us..
hehe we all were starving... so the food was finished fast..
n after nadirah's house i reall cld not eat anymore...omg...
than finally titi came... she looked so pretty n sexy ..

ok ok next house was at tampinies... our nisha darling house...
as usual.. she was a horrible host.. hehe
n also as usual.. she wanted to curl some1's hair..
hehe the fun part was doing out so called " photoshoot"
in her room.. so fun so fun
hehe.. we did not say there long coz it was alredi 8pm n we
still had to more house to go to....

pasir ris ppl..pasir ris... the second last house was at pasir
ris!!!! ain!!!! i love ur home !!! omg she has a country / vintage house
it was beautiful... omg.. when we walked into her room..
all of us was inspired to do our rooms after tat..

ok ppl..juz when we thought pasir ris was far....
our last house was at changi...
yes ppl changi...
titi's house...
we were looking at titi's baby pic..
omg..she was super cute...
n gurl btw..u look so hot in tat red dress u tried on...

than lastly was home sweet home... it was
alredi gonna be 11pm.. so me idayu n siti took a cab back..

u know somethin guys...i tripped n hurt my feet...
idayu hurt both her legs..
sad sad... but i tell u ... i had so much of fun tat
it did not seem to hurt so much ...

once again thank u gurls for inviting me...i
really really enjoyed myself... thank u so much..
love u gurls.. miss u ..muacks..

wats up wif her!!!

2009-09-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

ok i know half of u will not know who.
but it does not matter i am juz so pissed of wif her
can u believe... she is 19 oni .. n has a child..!!!
n for crying out loud..she want to pay him to
take her out to tekka!!!
u think wat la he so dumb ah.. going to tekka wif u ..
its like telling halp the indians tats ur bf..
sorry gal!! tats so not going to happen ok !!!!

i mean for haven sake... worry abt being a gd mom
instead of satisfiying ur desires...
i pray to god tat your child really does not end up like u ..

sorry la.. i know i sound so evil.. but u know i am not angry tat u are hitting on him
coz trust me gal... i know him better...
juz tat..u r not married.. n very young..but u have to support a child...
dont let any1 say u r cheap..
4 tat..plz dont behave like tat... its really so dumb to buy guys..
i know the girl who i am talking abt .. will not read this..
but dont know la.. juz feel like venting my anger here..

long time no update....

2009-09-27T11:42:00.000+08:00

ntg much happened this week....
from now on... gopal will nvr msg me...coz i finally
managed to tell him that really i dont love anyone else but dinesh..
i tell u..i swear i nvr loved some1 so much..
hmmmm..aiyo aiyo aiyo...
hehe tat day i n dinesh was playing taiti(not sure if correct spelling)
omg..it was so fun... hehe maybe can conclude... but maybe oni la....
tat i am a better taiti player than him..
i think so oni la..

friday...
me my sis ..my dad and my sis frens...
all of us went hiking...
so fun..
it was my first time going hiking..
we went at nite...
the worst part is.. we oni had 1 touch light...
it was so dark but adventurous..
we didnt go all the way to the top coz he air was too thin
and a could not breath after a while...
worst part is i did not bring my inhaler..
i felt bad tat becoz of me the rest cld not go all the way
to the top.. but they were very understanding i must say..
they helped me a lot..
thank u guys for helping...

can u believe it..
i really must have ppl who hate me so much
tat they have to use other ppl name
n tag rubbish on my tagboard...
so inmuture...

Best weekend...

2009-09-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

My dad went to msia... to i stayed out later wif sakthi n ramesh.., than met dinesh later... omg we all had to much of fun...dancing under the blk..taking pic....joking ard...
fun ...oni went to bed ard 3 am i guess..
worst part had to be at yew tee cc at 10am..
i telling u ... so tired..went to dinesh house ard 1pm...
slept there... than went back to the cc for the talent time show...
wow...i was super nervous for our performance... but my family said it was nice..
even strangers came up to us and said it was nice...
i will nvr 4get this weekend... i had so much of fun

wat a weeked!!!

2009-09-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

our chairman ramesh
me and shakthi..(quite gd looking ah)

siti,linges,lavania,hassan..

walking n walking n walking..

slacking under the blk...

ME!!

Shakthi actually wanted to pose differently..whenevery1 was making fun of him..so cute

omg so muched as happened in this weekend..

i nvr believed all this wld happen but nvm its ok...

well... i went 4 healthscreening yesterday...

wif the iaec members...omg i cried so much when they had to

take my blood...

actually it was not tat painful la..

after tat we went to slack... it was so fun..

i accidently took shakthi's cap back...

hehe..will return it when i c him this weekend...

n btw this sat is our dance performance...

i am so excited....

any1 wanna come..

tickets at $2 oni..

n too all my muslim frens... u got oni 5 more days...yea!!

enjoy

day 6...n omg

2009-09-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite was the best nite ever
..i enjoyed talking to u ...
but not sure if things will be the same..
lets juz go wif the flow alrite....

ya... wat a morning... having breakfast now...
so boring la.
oh ya.. yesterday's dancing practice was fun but tiring..
from 4 .30 to 8.30pm..
the dance is starting to look nicer n everyone is enjoying themselves..
hehe u know the last time i performed wif my sis was when i was in pri 6 n she in pri 5..
now we both are in poly... its fun... i love the ppl there too...
they really make me 4get all my probs..
juz like my 4 angels... i miss them ... gonna meet them tmr for the post ndp meeting..
c u there gals

day 5.....

2009-09-09T14:12:00.000+08:00

oh my god!!!!
u have no idea wat is happening..
the gal who dinesh talks to every nite...
has fallen in love wif him so much ...
dnt know if he is giving her false hope or not

than my ex guy's fren sends me a msg in facebook.
saying tat my ex still loves me!!! n wans me back..
WTH!!
wat a timing rite!!!!!!

tats not the end...
another ex... sends a pic msg of his bro's new born baby
i said wow..so cute...
he said ya... maybe in the future..... we both can have a son like tat..
i said..well than we shall tok abt it in the future...
he said... y u like tat
i mean wats up wif guys n their timing....
i get hurt.... but than there is others there..
wat do i do??!!!

as for day 5 project lose weight...its not going well!!
thanks to all this confusion i 4got i was on a mission..
back on track jasvinny!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps: i miss piggy bank...hehe oni my frens know wat tat means...

its hurting.... n who do i tell it to..???!!!

2009-09-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

I jus found out something...n its so hurting... i knew he was talking to her....
i know i am nobody to question him... but y did he do it..
if its real than i really don't know wat to do ...
but if its oni for fun... y make her build so much of hopes n love for him..
do i tell her or not?? tat he is mine..
ohhh god...y do this to me...??
i loved wif all my heart n did the best i cld..
wat went wrong ??
it was so beautiful.. now its juz a mess....
its so hard to pretend to smile in front of ppl..when i feel like i wanna cry it out loud..
he will nvr understand how i feel is it??
does he even wan all this??
i am going crazy!!!!

Project lose weight day: 2,3,4

2009-09-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

well... i started eating outside food again!!! i have to stop !!
the gd thing is i feel full easily.. i haven't tried out the face treatment which my frens
gave me... but i am thinking of doing it today..

i also wanna try the home made treatment for hair loss... (looking at it now... in a health megazine)
for those who wanna try ... i shall let u know..

Put some curry leaves in any oil(coconut oil, olive oil,etc)
Heat the oil gently until u see the leaves changing color
allow the oil to cool that massage ur scalp and hair with it
wait 20 mins and wash it off.

another treatment is for dry hair

massage ur hair with any plain yogurt
leave it for 20 mins and than wash it off

smoother and lustrous hair will be yours...

weekly hair mask treatments

mix the yolk of an egg in a 1/2 cup milk.
apply a little oil on ur hair (for dry hair) than apply this mask on your entire hair
massage the head for 10 mins and than rinse it well in warm tepid water
shampoo as normal.

try it ppl.. i am so gonna try it...
n ya tmr i am going for heat yoga... where its very hot n you do yoga there...
wow... so excited....

Day 1, porject lose weight...

2009-09-06T09:51:00.000+08:00

well it did not go too bad...
i woke up in the morning to exercise...
i tried the drinking water thing, which my frens thought me...

today is day 2... hmmm woke up late so nvr exercise, need to
go get ready for thehelping out thing and later got dancing practice..
so i shall take tat as my excerise ..
i really hope tis works la...
wish me luck everyone

home sweet home..

2009-09-04T22:18:00.001+08:00

so gd to be back home after a week of staying at my grandma's place..
but still dont mind staying there too..
hmmm had dance practice today..
guess wat !!! i have to lose weight in 2 weeks!!
crazy isn't it... but i so wanna do it.. i joining my frens..
they got all sorts of activities...
they teaching me to home facial n some tips on how to lose weight..
i am going to call this project losing weight... not much of a name but who cares rite
i am so gonna update on this project ...
wish me luck everyone!!

btw i have to lose weight so i can fit into my replacements costume...
fuck rite.. but in a way i am excited.... i love excerising... juz became lazy ..
i miss my frens like crazy ...!!!!
love u gals... tc...

here i come meat...

2009-09-02T15:38:00.000+08:00

finally i get to eat meat....no more veggie ...
juz had prawn chilli padi..so yummy...
i will be staying at my grandmother house today juz for fun..
miss my frens....
4 more weeks than back in sch .. which also means.. 4 more weeks to lose weight
i not going to give up now....i have to lose weight..i look so ugly....

shop shop....

2009-08-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

I didnt go shopping... but i was at dinesh shop..at paya laber... the bazzar for the hari raya i guess.. I was so nervous... i really thought i wont be able to sell anything but i did... yea!!
only a dress la.... i hope tat 1 day I can bring my frens there... n omg... the ppl around dinesh shop are so friendly... they really helped me alot... they asked me to come back soon .. I hope to c them soon too...

Hehe as 4 yesterday's slp over ... it was great...i juz wish that ain n titi wld b there.. i will upload the pic soon.. when i am less tired... now i am so so tired...n my stomach hurts like hell...i cant slp!!!

slp over again yea!!!!

2009-08-26T21:25:00.000+08:00

Omg this was so last min... from just watching movie... it became a slp over..
than now... to a confession session.... i am updating my post.... while nisha and idayu are listening to "maditating song"... boom boom pow... was super calming song la.... hehe
when i get back home i shall post the pic of their crazy moment.....god help me!!! these ppl are nuts...
u have no idea wat i am going through right now.... kk .. bye bye... c ya gonna watch horror movie wif these crazy gal...

1 more day!!

2009-08-24T09:28:00.000+08:00

I more day wif my classmates...
errr... i gonna miss every single1 of u ...
n yes i mean it...every single 1 k ..

btw sorry for not posting so long... not as though i have so many ppl viewing or wat
but i just had a lot of things happening recently...

1 more day also means 1 more day to the end of exams
n 1 more day to enjoy wif my 4 angels..
ya speaking of angels.. it was our 5 mths anniversary
crazy right... hehe we were sending anniversary msges to each other...
cute la...

k k ...have to get ready n go 4 exam ... bye..

sick again..

2009-08-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

I had ear infection yesterday.. bcoz of my cough it somehow it got to the ear. Wow, it was so painful.. I had to wait about 30 mins to c the doc, omg the pain was excruciating..
Today I am feeling better, at my grandmothers place, everyone was so gloomy again... everyone cannot concentrate on anything... exams are coming.. i don’t know what to do ..

I love my grandma.. I love her so much... as for my cousins .. we have to be srong for our parents its gonna be harder for them than for us.. as a family we have to stick together now ..more than ever..

wats happening????!!!!

2009-08-16T19:18:00.000+08:00

Firstly.. congrats to dinesh to passing is practical.. he really have been trying so hard to pass.. so happy for him... miss him a lot too.. hehe n also good luck in getting in getting gal no tmr...

On the other hand, I did not go out wif my frens today..i mean even if I go.. my heart will be elsewhere .. my family is telling me to tell my grandma..everything will be ok and that i can let go.. but the truth is i cannot .. she brought me up well and cared for me better than my mother could have ever done..i bet everyone in my family wld be feeling like tat right now..

As for my family, everyone is so worried if the family will come together after this, i feel as long as vilasini attai is here we all will come... n as long as we keep our traditions and continue to have events we will always always still come together.... i love my family.. they mean a lot to me... every single member in my family has really done so much for me.. i am so grateful to god for giving me such a family..
Hari attai happy 43th bday...

LOA

2009-08-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

i nvr go sch today.... having fever...n caughing badly too
but i really miss my frens a lot...
hopefully i can go back to sch tmr..
my dad keep nagging at me. juz becoz i nvr go c the doc..

omg.. by the end of next tue... i wont be in the same class wif u guys anymore..
i am so so so so so so so gonna miss u guys...
titi... hope u get well too... love u guys so much ... c ya tmr.. hopefully la

slp over n some ndp pic..

2009-08-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

in the cab on the way to tanah merah..

in nisha's bathroom.. omg... we took a long time to get ready on tat day

me n nisha's room wall....

hehe... gd morning

i will not 4get wat we did tat morning.. n tat nite... so fun!!!

altogether... 163 cupcakes!!! crazy rite!!! can start business alredi.. any1 wans... serious ok..

stress alredi u know.. from 3 something to ard 10 somethings... thank god i didnt dream of cupcakes tat nite...

HEHE!!!!!!!!!

look so nice rite....

aiyo!!!! they keep eating the batter and the cupcakes...

ain n nisha ..hard at work

ain so pretty...

yummy chocolate...

yesterday NDP

2009-08-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

omg... i had so much of fun during NDP...
n btw nisha u looked so pretty yesterday..
the party was fun too.... screaming out loud like
crazy gals... running ard the stage... lots of fun..
n i am glad i was wif u gals..
looking forward to the tea party ..
n study hard gals.... UT coming..
we have to graduate together rem..

overnite at nisha's place......

2009-08-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

sat i stayed at nisha's place... hehe
me...idayu n nisha... had so much of fun baking cupcakes 4 all the ndp motivators..
we baked abt 163 cupcakes...
at nite ..we played this conversation starter thing..
so memorable... later juz fell asleep alredi...

too much of things happened to write it all out...

so sister move...

2009-08-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

last yr..

this yr

u know..my sis said she always admired me for my confidence.... i always manage to be strong and go all out to get what i want... but u know wat.. i always admired her for her confidence....

hehe..sisters...

we always fight... we are like opposites of all the opposites..but we always will be there for each other..

wat a day...

2009-08-07T09:34:00.001+08:00

so many ppl not in class today.. sob..sob... so boring..errr...

the class is so quiet... i think all no mood ah

btw i did not get the everlast shirt.. no more alredi ..

so i bought contact lens... new look.....

New look

2009-08-06T09:02:00.000+08:00

I am wearing a new look from today onwards... N its called ME!!!
hehe i talked to taha yesterday nite after so long...N he was right.
I am egoistic to other guys except for dinesh..
I wanna have my confidence back, not juz to other guys but towards dinesh.. also .
I don’t want to be weak for a guy.. so not worth it .. so ya.. New look.. New me ppl..

Yesterday's train ride was fun.. i love the topic... n the free show..
hehe.. from woodlands to orchard than to tempanise than back home..
wow long sia...

Everlast here i come...

2009-08-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

Yea..i won't have any more money untill the 20th ..but i am ok..
as long as i get the everlast shirt..

n also... i decided i only want dinesh ..ya..i cannot treat any guys like the way i treated him..
He made me realise a lot of things and i dont want to lose a treasure like him.
hehe and I am happy ...I am super super happy... I know what i want

u know he asked me once... what is my Definition of beautifull
n i said some1 who can look gd wifout make up and have a gd heart
n he said... juz like u ah ..
i was like ya right.
now i wanna say thank u so much .
i really miss him ...

wow..i am really in love... i hope he feels the same way still...

2009-08-04T11:20:00.000+08:00

my angels.... nisha...idayu.. ain.. titi...

love u guys always...

yea..i did something new...

2009-08-04T11:08:00.000+08:00

I WAS LATE FOR THE FIRST TIME
N I BOUGHT CIGGARETES FOR THE FIRST TIME..
(however i was so blur untill the shop aunty asked me if i really smoked)
btw i dont smoke..i bought it for my frens....

wats so fucking wrong wif him..

2009-08-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

cant he juz reply... i alredi said fine i accept the break..so y is he being such a big pain.
eeerrrrrr..this is harder then i thought... you know wat is really pissing me off.. i was the one who asked for the break but i am taking it harder than him... i have to be strong...

love baby love..

2009-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

hehe.. Thank u my loving angels... nisha..ain.. titi and idayu for helping me out wif the blog..
really appriciate it a lot.. thank u guys a million for all that u have done for this crazy fren of urs..
hmm love u all... muacks muacks...

its official... its over..

2009-08-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

yes we broke up...ya i miss him like hell..
Ya ..i just have to go through all this and be strong. God gave me so many angels to comfort me and make me strong ..I really am grateful. To my angels: Idayu, Nisha, Titi, Ain, Dineswari ( sorry if wrong spelling) and lastly my dad.. u guys gave me so much of hope and support to move on. I will not let u all down..

Right now i want to study hard wif my frens..enjoy wif them and always be a good daughter to my dad( it will be hard, i still am playful and crazy remember) ... I still feel so fucking hurt right now..!!!! but i still wish him happiness..

1st ever post .....

2009-07-30T15:44:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone ... welcome to my opening ceremony... I am still lost as to how to blog and stuff.... hmmmm ... My frens... plz help me alright...